I’m really not sure if anyone could be more afraid about their future than I am right now.  

I am 72% done with my degree and I don’t feel like i’ve learned a thing.  I haven’t really taken college as seriously as I should have and now i’m almost finished and I feel like i’m still the same person that I was when I started.

At this point, I know that its not entirely too late to try to turn things around, but I just wish that I would’ve taken advantage of the opportunity that I’ve been afforded.  I have to step outside of my comfort zone and do things that will get me somewhere.  I have to be successful simply because there is too much pressure on me not to.  I have too many people watching me and waiting on me to fail and there are too many people looking at me to be the only one that doesn’t fail.  Either way, I have work to do within these next few semesters.

Sometimes I wonder why I dealt the cards that I was.

I can’t do too much complaining, because I’ve had a pretty easy life compared to other people.  That still doesn’t really change the fact that some aspects of my life are hard to deal with.  I dont believe God will give me more than I can bare, so I have faith that everything will turn out alright.